well i will start from the begining, we got to northampton after an hour driving from leicester, signed in in reception and went to wait out side the room, i had to go and get changed into a very sexy hospital issue dressing gown thingy and then i was asked for a wee sample, true to form, i couldnt go so had some water and then managed a few drops! went in and lay down, had the speclum inserted, and the consultant did the things he needed to do, didnt hurt too much but there was a few points when i thought i might fly off the table but it was manageable,
after it was done, we got told the news that my tubes were completely blocked and our only hope is to go for IVF...
we were both absolutely heartbroken, and we totally didnt expect it to be that.
i have returned to hospital and have had a few hours to wallow and try to digest the news, but i think it will take time....
so it would seem that we are now on the road to IVF for our dream to have a baby.....
Saturday, 24 May 2008
Wednesday, 21 May 2008
quick update
well, i type this from hotel glenfield, where i am an impatient. all going well, starting to feel better now which is great, on the cf front nothing major to report really, unless you consider the horrendous bruises from where they have attempted to take blood!!! my port a cath (mark 6) is working well for a change.
on the ttc front, we went back to the fertility consultant and saw his registra which i wasnt pleased with and he knew nothing of cf, anyway it was deceided to do a HSG on me this coming friday, it is a procedure where they insert a speculum (similar to what they use for a smear) and inject dye into my womb and take x rays to determine if there is any blockges!!! not sure what to expect but i will no doubt give a full report about it. thats on friday and my lovely husband is coming from northampton to get me in leicester, take me to northampton general and then bring me back to hospital here in leicester, what a sweetie he is!
no other news really, oo me and adam took a very much needed break to london for 4 days and to celebrate our first year of marriage! which has been a wonderful year! while in london i also met up with my pen pal of over 12 years, she came over with her husband to do a europe tour and we deceided to meet up, and it was fab, i also had a tear in my eye when we had to part ways!!! i hope we meet again before another 12 years go by! the weather was fab in london and i now look like i have been to the med for 2 weeks!!
thats all for now.
A
on the ttc front, we went back to the fertility consultant and saw his registra which i wasnt pleased with and he knew nothing of cf, anyway it was deceided to do a HSG on me this coming friday, it is a procedure where they insert a speculum (similar to what they use for a smear) and inject dye into my womb and take x rays to determine if there is any blockges!!! not sure what to expect but i will no doubt give a full report about it. thats on friday and my lovely husband is coming from northampton to get me in leicester, take me to northampton general and then bring me back to hospital here in leicester, what a sweetie he is!
no other news really, oo me and adam took a very much needed break to london for 4 days and to celebrate our first year of marriage! which has been a wonderful year! while in london i also met up with my pen pal of over 12 years, she came over with her husband to do a europe tour and we deceided to meet up, and it was fab, i also had a tear in my eye when we had to part ways!!! i hope we meet again before another 12 years go by! the weather was fab in london and i now look like i have been to the med for 2 weeks!!
thats all for now.
A
some pics!
may 5th 2007, our wedding day!
thought it was time to put a face to a name, here i am at the eye last week with my fab husband.!Tuesday, 29 April 2008
what a week
well, where do i start,
i was made redundant on wednesday, came as a huge blow, shocked me to the core, i went home early as i couldnt face being there, i felt like such a failure. but now i have slept on it for a few nights, i think its a good thing and cant wait to get out of there, last day tomorrow. then i am going to take the month of may off, and go into hospital as i am in desperate need of getting some IVs. and basically chill out! also going to go on my mini holiday..... yay!
on the ttc front, its cd 25, so its just waiting for either af to turn up, or hopefully, i will be pg, but i dont think i will be this month even though we did everything 'right' i just doubt it. how awful is it to have to do things right, rather than being all relaxed and carefree (as i was when we first started!)
also on the 7th may i have our fertility consultation so hopefully we will go on from there and know what the next step is.
xx
i was made redundant on wednesday, came as a huge blow, shocked me to the core, i went home early as i couldnt face being there, i felt like such a failure. but now i have slept on it for a few nights, i think its a good thing and cant wait to get out of there, last day tomorrow. then i am going to take the month of may off, and go into hospital as i am in desperate need of getting some IVs. and basically chill out! also going to go on my mini holiday..... yay!
on the ttc front, its cd 25, so its just waiting for either af to turn up, or hopefully, i will be pg, but i dont think i will be this month even though we did everything 'right' i just doubt it. how awful is it to have to do things right, rather than being all relaxed and carefree (as i was when we first started!)
also on the 7th may i have our fertility consultation so hopefully we will go on from there and know what the next step is.
xx
Friday, 11 April 2008
tfi friday
well no more clomid this month for me, which i am releived about, i have been reading the book, 'taking charge of you fertility' by toni w. its great to learn some things about my body!!!
i might chart next month. maybe.
off to have a birthday lunch with my friend M.
and then a relaxing weekend planned, i am going to get some pictures up tonight i hope!
xx
i might chart next month. maybe.
off to have a birthday lunch with my friend M.
and then a relaxing weekend planned, i am going to get some pictures up tonight i hope!
xx
Wednesday, 9 April 2008
day 4 clomid
wow all i can say is hot flushes!!!!
chest playing up a bit but going to try to hold out for another 4 weeks, hopefully.
got a few weddings and a trip to london and our most important consultant appointment (may 7th) so i want to get all those out the way before i embark on a tune up!!! lol
i am trying to shift some weight as well (as i am a chubby cfer!!) so its just fruit and cereal in the day which is getting tiresome,
xx
chest playing up a bit but going to try to hold out for another 4 weeks, hopefully.
got a few weddings and a trip to london and our most important consultant appointment (may 7th) so i want to get all those out the way before i embark on a tune up!!! lol
i am trying to shift some weight as well (as i am a chubby cfer!!) so its just fruit and cereal in the day which is getting tiresome,
xx
Monday, 7 April 2008
2nd cycle (march)
sorry for blogging a lot later than the actual event,
anyway, started 100mg clomid this month, had a tracking scan and my follicles were at 8.9mm and a whopping 22.2 mm which looked as if it was about to pop according to my consultant, good news i thought, and we got busy, my cycle was a 30 dayer and i cried again when i period arrived, i keep thinkng, if i expect it to not work i will be ok, but every month in the 2 week wait (2ww) before af is due, i get so incredibly hopeful and happy and then i come crashing back down again, we have a fertility appointment on the 7th may so will see what he suggests really, i am hoping they will do a hsg (type of x ray on your womb and fallopian tubes) and then start on IUI maybe, one thing is for sure, i cant carry on like this for another year or 2, i want to be pregnant and then i can actually start moving on with our lives.
good news is that i need no more tracking scans whilst on clomid!
anyway less of woe is me.
today ( monday) is cd 3, day 2 of clomid 100mg and only having the odd hot flush, i am so going to make an effort this month, going to take robitussin, drink grapefruit juice, and be as 'active' as we can.
my chest is clear ish for me and i think i have a clinic appointment this month, but i am going to go into hotel glenfeild hopefully in may, after our anniversary weekend in london, adam has been a star and aggreed we could go and see wicked in london, cant wait, i love going away, makes me feel like me again and not thinking about pregnancy or babies or cf. joy of joy.
not sure if anyone will ever find this blog remotely interesting, as i dont have much knack for writing, but it feels good to write down my thoughts and one day it might make an interesting read when i am old and grey....
anyway, started 100mg clomid this month, had a tracking scan and my follicles were at 8.9mm and a whopping 22.2 mm which looked as if it was about to pop according to my consultant, good news i thought, and we got busy, my cycle was a 30 dayer and i cried again when i period arrived, i keep thinkng, if i expect it to not work i will be ok, but every month in the 2 week wait (2ww) before af is due, i get so incredibly hopeful and happy and then i come crashing back down again, we have a fertility appointment on the 7th may so will see what he suggests really, i am hoping they will do a hsg (type of x ray on your womb and fallopian tubes) and then start on IUI maybe, one thing is for sure, i cant carry on like this for another year or 2, i want to be pregnant and then i can actually start moving on with our lives.
good news is that i need no more tracking scans whilst on clomid!
anyway less of woe is me.
today ( monday) is cd 3, day 2 of clomid 100mg and only having the odd hot flush, i am so going to make an effort this month, going to take robitussin, drink grapefruit juice, and be as 'active' as we can.
my chest is clear ish for me and i think i have a clinic appointment this month, but i am going to go into hotel glenfeild hopefully in may, after our anniversary weekend in london, adam has been a star and aggreed we could go and see wicked in london, cant wait, i love going away, makes me feel like me again and not thinking about pregnancy or babies or cf. joy of joy.
not sure if anyone will ever find this blog remotely interesting, as i dont have much knack for writing, but it feels good to write down my thoughts and one day it might make an interesting read when i am old and grey....
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