what a week

well, where do i start,

i was made redundant on wednesday, came as a huge blow, shocked me to the core, i went home early as i couldnt face being there, i felt like such a failure. but now i have slept on it for a few nights, i think its a good thing and cant wait to get out of there, last day tomorrow. then i am going to take the month of may off, and go into hospital as i am in desperate need of getting some IVs. and basically chill out! also going to go on my mini holiday..... yay!

on the ttc front, its cd 25, so its just waiting for either af to turn up, or hopefully, i will be pg, but i dont think i will be this month even though we did everything 'right' i just doubt it. how awful is it to have to do things right, rather than being all relaxed and carefree (as i was when we first started!)

also on the 7th may i have our fertility consultation so hopefully we will go on from there and know what the next step is.

xx