:-)

first appointment at care northampton on 10th december.................................... its actually starting, i have no idea what to expect......... totally didnt think we would get this app till at least jan/feb........ :-)

woe is me...

i am tired, i am miserable, i am lonely, husband working nights, no money, everyone seems to be pregnant around me, i dont want to go back to work on monday in the slightest..... i just want to get away from my thoughts for a while..... is that even possible? this whole malarky of babies is too much tonight, for once could i not be me and constantly think about pregnancy, babies, ivf, blah de blah. i would like to forget the whole thing just for a few days so i ccould gather myself back up and be me again... totally lost sight of who alison is anymore...... i just feel lost and alone,




never mind. a decent nights sleep will improve my spirits i hope...

oh yes

on 4th novenber i celebrated 25 years of life!

apologies and some good news...

firstly i apologise i havent updated as my lap top has been out of action after i broke the charger whilst in hospital!!! whoopsie! all sorted now and while my husband is in bed as he is on nights i will catch up! two weeks ago a letter came through the door, with a postage stamp from our local pct (patient care trust) and i knew this letter would hold great news or it could contain bad news... i opened it up and i was shaking so much i couldnt actually read the letter then i caught sight of ".. we have approved one cycle of IVF for you.." my god i couldnt believe that we were approved for one go, now i know one go isnt a lot and rightly we should get 3 goes, due to postcode lottery its one funded go in northamptonshire, but its one chance for us to do it without having to worry about financial complications, it may not even work but at least we can give it a go... i am very pleased.

also spend two weeks in my lovely hospital which was uneventful except for breakng the laptop, but other wise all ok, lung function as high as its been for a few years at 78% all good news.

xx