steroids over with.... 4 days to go

have been released from northampton hospital, after having steroids. it was a long stay (4 days) but made even longer that i was on hourly obs, hourly bm's and there was no tv or radio at all,. ah well, i was admitted to a maternity ward with pre and post natal women on, had steroids at 1am, which hurt like anything, then was told if my sugars remained stable or under control i would be monitored there for the next few day but if my sugars went over 10mmols twice or over 12mmols once i would need to be transfered to hdu on the labour ward, my first sugar was 10.8, fasting before breakfast and my post breakfast was 14.2 so i was whisked off down to hdu and set up on the sliding scale, it was daunting on hdu as its only 4 beds with 2 midwives and 2 hca's so its just constant, but it was mainly for women who had had c setions and were recovering before going to the ward, so it was nice to have a preview of where we would be on tuesday. my sugars remained erratic esp after tuesdsays dose but by weds night they were normal and i was returned on thursday to the pre/post natal word to await discharge, which i was at 5.15 pm!!!

all in all it was ok, just have to wait for monday when i go in again to be prepped for tuesdays delivery, i have been quite emotional today, i think i am stressed from being in and out of different hospitals for the last 5 weeks, and i keep aving moments where i dont feel ready to have the baby and that its just come too quick, and i keep having moments where i amso excited and cant quite imagine my bump turning into a baby!!! doesnt make sense but i cant make sense of my thoughts or emotions at all either!!!

its just a countdown now for monday so i am getting the house ready, tidying and sorting etc and having a take away tomorrow with our best friends and just chilling before it gets manic!!!

positive vibes and thoughts for tuesday....