fun in the snow

had a bit of a boo boo last night trying to get home.... at least no one was hurt only the bollard.... the other is dereck, me and my sisters made him, despite his pink attire he is a he....

january....

well in typical fashion my period was late by 10 days which normally i couldnt care less but it means my february one will be later so it looks like we will be starting late feb / early march which is fine, we only get one go at ivf on the nhs here in northamptonshire which is a shame, but we hope it will only need one go, but doubly hard to take in is that we will only be having one embryo put back as the doctors think it would be too much of a risk for a mulitple pregnancy, which i unerstand but a teeny part of me would like 2 put back, our infertility nurse has still given us a 40% chance of sucess with one embryo which is still grearter than the natonal average for 2 embryos (26%) lets just wait and see!!!

i am currently just out of a 10 day stint in hospital and doing home IVs which is ok, i was quite depressed in ther and wrote some entimental things down which i might put on here when i feel braver!!! anyway i am going to enjoy my weekend of nothingness and prepare for back to work on wednesday!

sorry!

no post writing in december, silly me, a few reasons why not, i cant go into them but it involved families and being upset..... on a good note we had an appointment at care fertility clinic in december and as long as my cf consultant gives his approval for anesthetic and all the possible problems due to my cf and diabetes, we can go ahead and start 'cycling' (meaning we will be starting our ivf treatment ) as soon as i get my period due in early feb!

:-)

first appointment at care northampton on 10th december.................................... its actually starting, i have no idea what to expect......... totally didnt think we would get this app till at least jan/feb........ :-)

woe is me...

i am tired, i am miserable, i am lonely, husband working nights, no money, everyone seems to be pregnant around me, i dont want to go back to work on monday in the slightest..... i just want to get away from my thoughts for a while..... is that even possible? this whole malarky of babies is too much tonight, for once could i not be me and constantly think about pregnancy, babies, ivf, blah de blah. i would like to forget the whole thing just for a few days so i ccould gather myself back up and be me again... totally lost sight of who alison is anymore...... i just feel lost and alone,




never mind. a decent nights sleep will improve my spirits i hope...

oh yes

on 4th novenber i celebrated 25 years of life!

apologies and some good news...

firstly i apologise i havent updated as my lap top has been out of action after i broke the charger whilst in hospital!!! whoopsie! all sorted now and while my husband is in bed as he is on nights i will catch up! two weeks ago a letter came through the door, with a postage stamp from our local pct (patient care trust) and i knew this letter would hold great news or it could contain bad news... i opened it up and i was shaking so much i couldnt actually read the letter then i caught sight of ".. we have approved one cycle of IVF for you.." my god i couldnt believe that we were approved for one go, now i know one go isnt a lot and rightly we should get 3 goes, due to postcode lottery its one funded go in northamptonshire, but its one chance for us to do it without having to worry about financial complications, it may not even work but at least we can give it a go... i am very pleased.

also spend two weeks in my lovely hospital which was uneventful except for breakng the laptop, but other wise all ok, lung function as high as its been for a few years at 78% all good news.

xx