well, where do i start,
i was made redundant on wednesday, came as a huge blow, shocked me to the core, i went home early as i couldnt face being there, i felt like such a failure. but now i have slept on it for a few nights, i think its a good thing and cant wait to get out of there, last day tomorrow. then i am going to take the month of may off, and go into hospital as i am in desperate need of getting some IVs. and basically chill out! also going to go on my mini holiday..... yay!
on the ttc front, its cd 25, so its just waiting for either af to turn up, or hopefully, i will be pg, but i dont think i will be this month even though we did everything 'right' i just doubt it. how awful is it to have to do things right, rather than being all relaxed and carefree (as i was when we first started!)
also on the 7th may i have our fertility consultation so hopefully we will go on from there and know what the next step is.
xx
Tuesday, 29 April 2008
Friday, 11 April 2008
tfi friday
well no more clomid this month for me, which i am releived about, i have been reading the book, 'taking charge of you fertility' by toni w. its great to learn some things about my body!!!
i might chart next month. maybe.
off to have a birthday lunch with my friend M.
and then a relaxing weekend planned, i am going to get some pictures up tonight i hope!
xx
i might chart next month. maybe.
off to have a birthday lunch with my friend M.
and then a relaxing weekend planned, i am going to get some pictures up tonight i hope!
xx
Wednesday, 9 April 2008
day 4 clomid
wow all i can say is hot flushes!!!!
chest playing up a bit but going to try to hold out for another 4 weeks, hopefully.
got a few weddings and a trip to london and our most important consultant appointment (may 7th) so i want to get all those out the way before i embark on a tune up!!! lol
i am trying to shift some weight as well (as i am a chubby cfer!!) so its just fruit and cereal in the day which is getting tiresome,
xx
chest playing up a bit but going to try to hold out for another 4 weeks, hopefully.
got a few weddings and a trip to london and our most important consultant appointment (may 7th) so i want to get all those out the way before i embark on a tune up!!! lol
i am trying to shift some weight as well (as i am a chubby cfer!!) so its just fruit and cereal in the day which is getting tiresome,
xx
Monday, 7 April 2008
2nd cycle (march)
sorry for blogging a lot later than the actual event,
anyway, started 100mg clomid this month, had a tracking scan and my follicles were at 8.9mm and a whopping 22.2 mm which looked as if it was about to pop according to my consultant, good news i thought, and we got busy, my cycle was a 30 dayer and i cried again when i period arrived, i keep thinkng, if i expect it to not work i will be ok, but every month in the 2 week wait (2ww) before af is due, i get so incredibly hopeful and happy and then i come crashing back down again, we have a fertility appointment on the 7th may so will see what he suggests really, i am hoping they will do a hsg (type of x ray on your womb and fallopian tubes) and then start on IUI maybe, one thing is for sure, i cant carry on like this for another year or 2, i want to be pregnant and then i can actually start moving on with our lives.
good news is that i need no more tracking scans whilst on clomid!
anyway less of woe is me.
today ( monday) is cd 3, day 2 of clomid 100mg and only having the odd hot flush, i am so going to make an effort this month, going to take robitussin, drink grapefruit juice, and be as 'active' as we can.
my chest is clear ish for me and i think i have a clinic appointment this month, but i am going to go into hotel glenfeild hopefully in may, after our anniversary weekend in london, adam has been a star and aggreed we could go and see wicked in london, cant wait, i love going away, makes me feel like me again and not thinking about pregnancy or babies or cf. joy of joy.
not sure if anyone will ever find this blog remotely interesting, as i dont have much knack for writing, but it feels good to write down my thoughts and one day it might make an interesting read when i am old and grey....
anyway, started 100mg clomid this month, had a tracking scan and my follicles were at 8.9mm and a whopping 22.2 mm which looked as if it was about to pop according to my consultant, good news i thought, and we got busy, my cycle was a 30 dayer and i cried again when i period arrived, i keep thinkng, if i expect it to not work i will be ok, but every month in the 2 week wait (2ww) before af is due, i get so incredibly hopeful and happy and then i come crashing back down again, we have a fertility appointment on the 7th may so will see what he suggests really, i am hoping they will do a hsg (type of x ray on your womb and fallopian tubes) and then start on IUI maybe, one thing is for sure, i cant carry on like this for another year or 2, i want to be pregnant and then i can actually start moving on with our lives.
good news is that i need no more tracking scans whilst on clomid!
anyway less of woe is me.
today ( monday) is cd 3, day 2 of clomid 100mg and only having the odd hot flush, i am so going to make an effort this month, going to take robitussin, drink grapefruit juice, and be as 'active' as we can.
my chest is clear ish for me and i think i have a clinic appointment this month, but i am going to go into hotel glenfeild hopefully in may, after our anniversary weekend in london, adam has been a star and aggreed we could go and see wicked in london, cant wait, i love going away, makes me feel like me again and not thinking about pregnancy or babies or cf. joy of joy.
not sure if anyone will ever find this blog remotely interesting, as i dont have much knack for writing, but it feels good to write down my thoughts and one day it might make an interesting read when i am old and grey....
Monday, 3 March 2008
CD34
well its cd 34 and i am due to have my period either today or tomorrow at the latest. i am so tempted to test but i honestly dont think i could bear the dissapointment in a negative result. not that i think the clomid has done the trick at all this moth, what with a late ovulation and smaller that the consultant woulf like folicles..... oh well i dont feel any different this month i am even having period pains so i am sure aunt flo is on her merry way!!!
on a different note, my chest is stilll quite chesty but i am doing ok, still mumbling on at work though so cant be bad!!
on a different note, my chest is stilll quite chesty but i am doing ok, still mumbling on at work though so cant be bad!!
Thursday, 28 February 2008
2ww and a chest infection
well i am cd30. 10 days post ovulation, and nothing to report. i am tired but thats normal for me. also started being chesty today so i think i will need to up the nebs i think. oh well, i am due to go into hospi in the next month or so but i am going to try to stay away if i can help it for at least another 6 weeks. I have my 4 sisters staying over for a week while my mum goes on holiday on the 10th march.... its going to be hectic to say the least! i am lucky as well as i have an interveiw on the 10th for a company where my husband works and they are good with staff who are disabled / sick!!! fingers crossed! also fingers crossed for no af (aunt flo ie period) over the weekend! i really hope the clomid worked for us, but with no symptoms or anything its not looking good!
Friday, 22 February 2008
Side effects
well after 5 days on clomid the hot flushes have started and i am getting increasingly moody and having awful stomach pain. oh well onward and upward....
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